staying after school

so i got in trouble and i have to stay after school...it so gay help me!!!!
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have a good weekend

ill re update monday
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rain...

Rain, rain, its always raining, Rain, rain, I end up saying, Rain, rain, please go away now, Rain, rain, just leave right now, Rain, rain, don’t know how, I don’t care how, To make my rainy day just go away…So I stand, in the pouring rain, So I can, feel the growing pain, Of having rain, coming down .I can see raindrops playing their game, Even though they look the same, I know that there is more to rain then the pain it makes me feel

chris armbruster

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Homework

I h8 it im sure u h8 it we all h8 it...and it annoying... ill update l8er
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Coyote hill

so yea the place I'm living in now...it is supposed to be like a normal home where kid's who don't have a home go to live and the parent's there expect us to actually like it there and become a kind loving family...well fuck that i don't really know any of those people and they don't know me there is no way I'm becoming a loving family with any of them....the only girl i would think of as a sister is a girl named Kris shes 14 and really cool she's the only thing keeping me from running again because her life is just as fucked up as mine and if i leave her she will have the same problem i do with trusting people because right now she trusts me and i don;t want to break that with her she's really kool and doesn't deserve to be there none of us who live at coyote hill like it there....i mean it a little better then getting beat again but...idk Ive been moved to many times to diff rent houses that i just feel i want to give up...i look back on My life and realize wow...i have nothing really any more the only people i have to trust really is
Leigh Ann and Kris two people i Love one like a sister the other with my whole heart...coyote hill sucks ass....if they could hit us i they probably would but there is rules against that thank god but i wan't to leave again last time i ran away i got caught...but next time im goign to NY hopefully it will be a long trip but so worth it...i will update blog soon i gtg ^_^
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life...

wow every teens day ^_^ Friday yay we get a break from the hell hole that we have to go 5/7 days of the week. it very cool i mean who doesn't love Fridays...and the good thing about Fridays...is you get to look forward to Saturdays!!! lol but yea...man i was looking back on my life and i realize what is wrong....i think I'm depressed....and a little pissed...i blame my dad for my life...if he wouldn't have commit ed suicide then i wouldn't be living my hell hole of a life..if you could even call it a life i h8 it so much...why can't i have a normal life...i mean it seems good at times then i realize wow my life sux...i mean even though i was getting beat at my mom's i still think it would be better then the place that I'm living in now... i hate it where I'm living...have you ever thought of suicide...i have many times...when i don't think i have anything worth living for i think wow...who would care if i where to die....i mean my mom hates me my dad's dead and none of my family wants me...every house i live in is a shit hole and end up throwing me out at some point any way...SO yea why don't i just end my life make everyone Else's a little better... i honestly think the only thing keeping me on this earth alive is Friends that actually understand me and the ones i love...expceily Leigh Ann..without her id be dead...i really hate life...why does it have to be this way... nobody should have to live like this...and no I'm not gonna commit suicide..i thought about it a long time ago but I'm not gonna kill myself...i just want to find a home...and get out of this mess im in
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Leigh ann

I met a girl named Leigh Ann a long time ago she is a really cool sweet beautiful girl and i really love her...i mean really love her like my whole world is her anything i do i think of her i can't even be in a relationship without thinking of her which isn't bad at all i Love it..the only bad thing is she lives in a different state then i do the only way we can communicate anymore is by email...which I'm glad i can still hear from her but that's not enough for me...i want to be with her..i want to be able to hold her hand to press her lips to mine, to hold her when shes scared to comfort her when she's sad. I Love her so much...others will say it just teen love...i disagree this is true i know it is...if something where to ever happen to her i don't know what id do...id end my own life for hers i would gladly die if it meant she could live. if anyone where to ever hurt Ann i would hurt them 10x more they would wish they were dieing wish they were never born...Ann to me is like the air i breath...like the sun that shines...i would give up anything for her and i think she feels the same for me...Ann if you are reading this i love you with all my heart i always have since i met you..and i probably always will...we may have our disagreements in the future or fights but i will always love you nothing could stop my love and connection i share with you..and when I'm 16 i will come see you no second thoughts about it Ann you have no idea how much you mean to me...well maybe you do cause i think you think the same about me...i will look at the sun and moon everyday for now on until i see you and i will be hoping that you are looking to and thinking of me i have to go for now but i will always be thinking of you Ann always and forever you hold my heart
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Girls...so confusing

So i met a girl named kayla she was really cool we didnt start dating until about a week ago but i mean we wer flirting alot b4 we dated like a month b4...but yea so i just started losing intrest in her and i so wanted to break up with her but i don't feel dumping a girl is right..so i just gave her excuses to dump me...it worked...but i just figured out a few days ago that she was cheating on me with some guy named Austin...it really sux..i really like a girl named Leigh ann but she lives in a diff state then me...i so wish i can see her soon or something i miss her so much...and im pretty sure i can say i love her because i have for a long time ive promised her my heart for eternity...as long as she is careful with it...but jeez why do girls need to cheat on guys...rlly sux girls are so confusing but hey what would i do with out them. oh and kayla just a few words if you read this..Fuck you you slut. ,,!,,(-_-),,!,,
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WOW...

So yea....i am currently living in a foster home called coyote hills...it not a normal foster home...it a home were kids that have got kicked out or moved from another home...they live at coyote hills....well i decided the other day that i hate it there i would rather be getting hit....so i did what any typical teenager would do....i ran away...trust me...hitch hiking = very scary but i did make it back to where i wanted to go which would be New Bloomfield M.O but yea so i made it there and visited old freinds none of them could belive i ran away....well little did i know one of my old freinds turned me in and the cops found me...so now im back living at coyote hill...wich sux...i jsut want to go home...i miss it...and i will run again no one can stop me!

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school...ughh

Wow i mean i understand that school is importent but why do they have to make it so boring....i mean it the same thing everyday...everyday i wake up take a shower get dressed then eat breakfast....finnaly i get to school and it the same thing 7 hr's in all and we just walk around liek zombies going to class after class after class....do you agree? i mean so boring right!
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MY life

hey everyone I'm 15 years old I'm your typical teenager tiring to survive the world and anything it throws at me. I am a Lutheran Ive followed god almost my whole life.life sucks ill be the first but not the last to tell you all that...if you find god it is a little easier on you but not really because all through my life Ive believed in god and what has god done for me? exactly you can guess it nothing...Since i was born up to 2005 Ive been hit beat you name it....when i was three my mom and dad split up...my dad found a girl in Iowa named Katie and married her...he had two daughters with her....my dad committed suicide in 2005 and my mom since i hadn't seen since i was three wanted custody of me...you can only guess how that went...it was maybe a week be for we started fighting and then she started hitting me...nothing new in my life but i thought she was different guess i was wrong so they took me out of my house and moved me with my grandma well that didnt work either,,so they moved me with a foster family...and o guess what they gave me up to big surpise there...but hey ive got to go for now ill update later

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